Oh! and I will add this. I am not going to paint me the best picture.
I am a Criminal, I have a criminal history.
I had a rough childhood and my teens were no better.I ran with a pack and done some bad things.
There wasnt a house or building that I couldnt break into, There wasnt a car that I couldnt steal in less then 30 seconds.
Fighting was just a part of that life, So I also have assaults.
I wasnt into any form of drugs,but didnt mind a few drinks,hence why I dont drink Now,I stopped by 20yr old and never ever been drunk to the point of not remembering the night before.
I smoked cigs,thats was all. no other forms of drugs.
My 1st prison time was from 1982 to 1984. It is also in that time frame that DOCS claims and states I am taking drugs and molesting children.(funny how I am locked up)
Wasnt till 2001, that I return to a prison for Unlawful carnal knowledge.
From 1984 I believe I woke up to myself and started to change my life, even that was hard to do, But change it I did, By 1996 my son is born(where was DOCS then??,to remove and to kill the love?) I am with this woman off and on for over 15 yrs,Why did I leave,me being selfish,I wanted more children,she couldnt. and our relationship stopped,but not her being a mother,she still did that.
By 1994 I find my dream(a redhead:) ) and we start to build a family,she was already 6 months gone,our daughter is born in 94,
In 96 is when I learn of the brother molesting his daughter and others. I walk away from that family,when the mother took his side.
1997 my son is born and dies 7 weeks later(so,far no DOCS, Why?.)
from 97 to 2001, I am in that depression of hell and in the early parts of it, didnt even consider I was depressed,was in that depression when mistakes were made.and paid for it a 100 times over.
From 2003 to now, I have tried so much to rebuild my life and my dreams and goals.
Since leaving prison, my only crimes are, Traffic. 1 count of receiving stolen prop,cannabis. the DVO's from the 1st partner.
And thats it.
Now I have added events in my record, that they now read of me,to paint me a better picture of a Predictor/paedophile/terrorist,Of cos,anybody reading that for the first time will make a personal opinion(human Behaviour)and then pre judge me.
People like the partners, that did spend time with me, saw a man that is good.
They spent 24/7 with me, they saw all I did, They shared my dreams as I shared theirs. They wanted me for me and the values I have for family,The desires of love of a family.
I have a hard time finding a woman under these conditions,But when I do,I want to keep her and I will do all I can to make sure I dont lose her.
That means no 2 timing,no hitting, and no abuse.
sure there be them times of spats, hey, Normal, derrrr.
If we split, we split for the reason of being normal. Not to have DOCS march in like nazis and force a relationship to end,just cos they say so,When the relationship is sound and normal.what they do Is morally wrong.
I am no saint, I just have learnt to be a better human. My sons death,is the trigger to all this.
I learnt to cry,I learnt how to suffer and to be so much alone. I learn life is not how it should be. I learn love does not conquer all. I learn of the corruption from other so call humans,who will place a blade in you and smile as they do it.
I have learnt what friendship is about and honour. seems others havnt.
I have learnt that 2000 odd yrs ago, a man named jesus lived and gave the foundations to life to follow.
You Will always fall short of the glory to God.

Aye,Lord this is true, I am a mere human, But learning is the values that a human can try, to get as close as possible to being Godly. No human is perfect.
And if you dont learn,you never will.